back home from las vegas. and beginning of skewl n hoa =]

wow! back home from las vegas on friday the 13th! heard there was a fire down in santa cruz or something n then it was in santa clara iono how haha. when i went home around 8ish i saw the sun look like it was a sunrise or sunset or whtever haha cuz it was like kinda reddish n i thought sunrises and sunsets are reddish.. but it turns out it was a fire.
good to be back home =] got some sleep n had skewl on june 16th already! got to add englsih 1a 3-5 pm with ms. wilson. shes a good teacher so far =] very funny and nice. shes mean in a way but i didnt think shes that mean.
school is good =] my first weekend from skewl n i have a short essay due monday=] i can do this! haha have to write it in mla format or whtever.
wht else.. on the 18th got to spend time with hoa the bf =] n the 19th too! awww on the 18th he dropped my friend long off at his house and then hoa and i went shopping together at great mall =] yeah went to aeropostale and forever 21 and H&M. i bought two skirts at H&M pretty cute =] after great mall he took me all the way to sunnyvale surprise me with dinner there =] its a mediterranian or wthever restaurant n its called dishdash. its also by abyss too so i got to see wht it looks like. looks pretty big outside. looks cute haha xD yea went to eat there n the foods good! haha well i got this uh dinner thing haha i dont remember whts it called.n then he took me to his place n hung out n then he took me home n i got home at 12 haha
then today. 19th! he took me to sjsu around 12ish.. well went to walgreens to see if they have a copy machine but they dont. so went to SJSU and copy it at the library. went to MH 311 and i talked to susan mcclory.then, was going to go work out with him but if u dont go to summer skewl u have to pay 30 dollars a month man.. haha oh wellzz went back to library. saw lea =] was verry happy n then i saw isabelle too! went to the cafe thingie to buy water. n then left lea! haha went with hoa to the libary,mcdonalds, and then his house.. i like decided to sleep right after i ate.. which was a bad idea.. cuz when i woke up we went to go jogging n then i threw up when i went back to his house -_- aww poor me.. n good thing hoa took care of me xD i love that guy =] haha yes yes .. i love him xD.. im planning to tell him on his birthday! haha just thinking of how i should surprise him. haha

neways other than that. iw as great. he took care of me. got me food n water. i felt better after i threw up tho. i shouldve like sit up n let it digest man. oh wellz =]. soo yeah before we went to go jogging i was just laying on his bed n he was talkling to me. aww.. he said the cutest sweetest thing ever.. he said.. " iono why ur exes left u" "ur mine noww! too badd" haha aww =].. yea n i was like.. haha " u should go ask them" n then he goes.. " hhhaha noo" haha awww. made me feel special and made me think tht his feelings for me is very good very stable xD n i went home earlie today too. around 1030ish =] so mama dont have to worry

well i had a great day =] i should update about vegas too! haha vegas was fun! but tiring! haha

sunday june 8 , 2008

well, so anywhoo lets see whats going on with me. oh yesterday, saturday night, i was at work 5-10ish. i was sooo out of it because i was tired. that saturday morning, i had to wake up early to go to an-thanhs surprise party at eastridge. i went there around 1130ish to meet catherine lea tran to buy an-thanhs gift =]. when i went to eastridge, she was at the sanrio store going crazy 0_o haha funny cuz i had to get her out of that store, good thing i didnt go crazy. anyways went to go shopping at macys for an-thanhs gift. then show up at chilis around 1240ish or whatnot and only tu anh was there. n then angeline came n then phong. tony and kim and steven and cindy later on. waited for an-thanh and the girl name vi or vy. i dont know how to spell her name. yea. after that i ate soo much that my stomach bloated and i couldnt walk haha. phong took me over to barnes and nobles n then i called hoa. aww he wnted to spend some time with me, but in the end he just picked me up to drop me off at work because he was going to go to geromes house anyways and to cash his check. aww.. i was pretty tired n sleepy n soo i cloesd my eyes in his car, and he surprised kiss me =] soo cute. haha everythings cute to me, whtever hee does..

anywhoo soo i went to work and i was pretty much out of it, couldnt wait any longer until we cloesd but when we closed, we end up opening for another 15 minutes. i started to feel kinda better when we cloesd or whatnot. then anh dung came and he was being silly. called mark and then hoa since they both called me.
went home. and hoa called me at 12 and i crashed to sleep -_- haha went to sleep at 12ish n woke up 4 in the morning and he was still on the phone with me playing his games or working out haha n then i went back to sleep n woke up 1ish in the afternoon -_- dang.. i pretty much slept for 13 hours..

mara took me to the store and the kids too. went to eat and then mama and dad went to drive me to church. well pick up mamas car. talk to hoa a little bit on the phone.
went to church and waited for tiffany, turns out she was in church just when i went to church. she just waited a few minutes for me.

saw hoa during and after church. he looked soo serious. he said he was thinking -_-
i hope nothing bad.. well when we left.. he was in a hurry or something.. he didnt look back or nething.. soo hopefully he wasnt mad..or sad or pissed of whtever..

soo i just went to work and not think about it.. work was good. haha faster than yesterday. i think its because i was awake and stuff haha. i looked at the time n it was 7 already.. i also went home early =] right when the store closed, my sis decided to take me home xD

now im just online, waiting for hoa to go online and chilling


oh btw.. tuesday-thursday or friday, going to las vegas... my first time to las vegas! im pretty excited.. but tht means tomorrow i have to go to evergreen and straighten things out n add my class and stuff.. and not be stressed.. i gotta get ready for my test on saturday. i hope i pass.. well i should just take classes at evc just in case if i dont pass u know. but if i do pass, it might be a waste of money to to evergreen but eh.. its fine for me =]

um june 6, 2008 friday nothing special haha

anyways so i just got back from my evergreen placement testing!
and i passed on my reading part but not my writing part. im pretty happy with my score actually. reading: 80 and writing: 76. the thing is the first time i took it i still got an 80 on my reading but on my writing i got like a 70 or something -_- i really dont remember.
but anyways you need at least an 85 on the reading but i got an 80 and he said it was fine to get into english 1a but u need at least a 90 on the writing and so im wondering how many points i need to get into english 1a for my writing part. maybe 85? or like an 80. im pretty close to my score =]

well im really happy with my score, seriously. even if im in this tough position where i didnt pass english remedial in sjsu and i get dropped out of sjsu. what im trying to do now is add english 104 in evc. after that is done, im planning to take one more english placement test on the 14th at sjsu and see if i passed it. while im taking summer classes at evc, im going to wait until i get the scores from the placement test and hopefully i pass to get into english 1a for sjsu. if i dont then that means im not coming to sjsu for next semester.
eh its pretty fine with me you know? i mean its college, i gotta experience good and bad times anyways. im not even sad that i got a low score on my writing, it just means im pretty good with my essay corrections =] haha but work on it more!

todays also my little brother, anthony's graduation at his private school tonight at around 630 i believe. im very proud of him =] i think hes planning to go to silver creek high school and hopefully i wish him well there =]

for the future, i hope my parents and I will have a close relationship with each other. everyone in my family too. talking to my boyfriend hoa pham, kinda made me think a lot.
he helps me out a lot and im very thankful to have him =]
he doesnt know, but sometimes i think of telling my parents about him, how we are together and stuff. To me, its pretty hard telling your parents because ive never actually told them about any boyfriends ive ever had in the past so yeah.
i just dont know when and how im going to tell them.
he also doesnt know until he read my blogs one day, that i realy do think of love sometimes when im with him. i mean out there, they're different types of love.
you can love for food, desire for anything basically.
but im in a relationsihp with him, and when i describe love, its like an undescribable feeling that everyone has. you care for that person, your there for them, you sacrifice anything to be with them or for them, you basically do everything and anything for them a lot, theres also trusting and loyalty involve with the two.
if you are with someone that you care a lot for, and your definition of love is " caring a lot" wouldnt you say you love him/her?
well iono if i do love him, ive loved before.
and thinking of him makes me want to say i love him. just the thought that he cares for me a lot and i really do care for him. we go through bad and good times together and i couldnt imagine me being with someone else. i want to be with him through thick and thin and i know we both can make it through. i always feel like saying i love him to him. but i guess i should wait until im very sure, and maybe i can just show him how i feel.
i promised him that if i love him, i would tell him and im going to keep that promise.
i just have to look deep inside me and ask me if i love him.
sometimes i also feel im soo stuck with him you know? like im seeing him constantly and constantly and everything i do i want to do it with him.
i shouldnt. he should have his space and i should have mines.
everyone should be independent right?
i should just let him do his stuff and dont expect much from him u know.
thats what im going to do from now on. just expect less and give more of what i have for him.

thats him and im so thankful to havve him make me smile, laugh, through all the good and the bad=]/ i know anyone can do that, but hes one of a kind and hes my boyfriend and im very happy to met him and have him in my life.
"i know im a pain in the ass sometimes and i get butthurt all the time, but im learning things about you and your learning things about me. i know we do get along and sometimes we dont cuz of me or you or whatever =] haha but whtever happens happens. and i hope we still stay together no matter wht happens."

haha well many things have happened in one year at my sjsu.
i'll continue with stories and about my wonderful days later =]

my first blog

wow! so this blog is basically like myspace and xanga.
i see people have this blogger.com so i figured maybe i should try it out.
well since its my first blog maybe i should talk about me and what i wnt to do this this haha or whtever.

well i used to have a diary, well more than 1 actually and i havent been writing on my spare time -_- what im hoping for is for me to type in here mostly everyday so when i grow up and come back to this website, i will read what ive been up to in the past and see how much different it is from my past n my future.

what im hoping for is, I actuallly have the best and wonderful bf ever =]. yea out of every guy i ever dated or been with and stuff, i think back and their all wonderful i agree. but this special guy, i happen to wnt to be with him 24/7.i think of him constantly and miss him and im soo crazy for him. his name is hoa pham =]. through all the goodtimes and bad times he is one heck of a guy. being with him, i cant imagine life without him or before i was even with him. i cant imagine leaving him. he is going to be my present and my future =]
i am very positive about this relationship i have with him.
haha this is all i wnt to say for now.. i think i'll continue later on about this...

i actually have a placement test to study for and its tomorrow at evergreen and hopefully i pass =] ive been studying so i should pass!